trust

trust
so tired of everything i know we all make mistakes and we all fall down but really falling is so easy its the geting up part that sucks... when people say its ok they really dont mean it.... because they dont know what u went through really and yeah i kow God's in controll for all that happens in out lives but really... what do u do in times like this pray?? yeah i know already did that but what about when u are mad at ur self and some just totaly said something stupid than what do u do:P nothing. cry?? but than if u cry people say ur in college grow up :P than?? nothing thats right u do nothing at all and feel all bad an crapy inside and not say a thing and let urself have a bad day and keep feelin angry at urself. man really iam feel like crap right now!!!! yeah......... so it ok u gave it ur best it will be ok is all baaaloni!!! dosnt work in real like. whatever!!!!!!!!!! u cant have a sof heart in real life infact its pointless being nice and goining out of ur way for something that u desire........... well i said it there u go now go ahead and think its iam mean but really iam so sick and tired of myself and keep giving it my all an not see anything happen iam pissed off!! not at people but at myself and there u have it thats all i have to say whatever this suck!!!!